💔 I have decided to put this on my secrets because I don’t want to lose this memory. Although it was painful, heart broken I still enjoyed my times with you. I loved you 100%

Butterfly are elegant insects with beautiful wings but handling them are hard. You can’t hold them too tight. You will break them. Once you love a butterfly, you can never forget.

I got to Bangkok due to coup situation on June 9th, 2021. After that I was going around the city and I found this shop called “PM”. I met this butterfly. My reaction when I first met was “Holy cow!. She is so beautiful”. My heart beats like drums. I don’t even dared to look at her. It was the first time I feel like that. She was like an angel. She can’t speak english well but I understands what she wanted to say. It was a fun moment. I decided to go next week to visit her. That night, I can’t sleep thinking about that day. Felling in love deeply. Crave to get her. Wanted her to be mine. I tipped her a lot. That was the first time I tipped someone.

Next time I went to her, I talked more with her. Tell her I liked her. She told me to book her outside not inside the shop and give me line number. “This was super happy day for me”. I kissed her on forehead before I go back.

A lot happened during these times. No matter how many girls I met. No matter how many different girls I see. No matter how beautiful they are. I am not interested on them. I just missed my little butterfly. One day, I partied with my friends and they booked girls. I ended up not touching any girls because I can’t feel anything if the girl is not her. Next day, I booked her 12 hours and let her rest in the room. I just wanted to see her face whole day. She was like an angel when she was sleeping. So damn beautiful. She told me not to book outside since its more expensive. She told me to come to her room next time if I want outcalls. I feel like I was special for her. My love meter for her is increasing a lot. I know she had a lot of customers but I still feel like I was the one that was meant to be with her. Next week, I booked in her room and I got some problems with my crypto trades during my time with her so I suddenly feel lost interest on her for a few hours. She noticed that and cried cuz she thought I don’t have any feeling on her anymore. It was the time, my whole world crashed. I made my butterfly cried. I go back home. Sit on the road for hours smoking. Next day, I explained to her and apologize. Luckily, she forgave me. Phwewwwww!!. Next week, I booked her again and It was the best time in my life. We drink passionately enjoyed each others. This was the moment I knew I loved her already. I experience the feeling I never had before. Thank you my butterfly. I told openly about my financial status and things I have and etc etc. She also told openly about her. We became best friends. Her story is a sad story, I feel really bad and wanted to help her a lot. Starting from that day, I decided to make her happy no matter what. I bring her dates and treat her anything she want. It was 100% worth it. I was able to make my butterfly happy. I knew she was with me for money. She asked for a lot of things, from small items to big things. For me, if I can make her happy, it was 100% worth it.

Till this time, non of my friends knew about my relationship with her. They just thought I was just going for sx, actually its been a long time I don’t have sx with her. We just go for dates.

After that she went back to her hometown and bought me some gifts. I am so glad she thinks about me. This is where things got a bit ugly. After getting back from hometown, she borrow luggage from me and put her clothes and asked me to keep it and she go to chiang mai with her best friend. A few days after that my friend got some case in Chiang mai and I went there and book the hotel in front of her hotel. I messaged her to meet for a few seconds, she replied “Please don’t chase me like that, its scary” so we ended up not meeting. She told me she was with her tom boy friend. I never knew whether she was with another customer or actually with her best friend. I think too much and got a minor heart break. Its ok. time healed. After that, dates...dates and dates. One day I got drunk and wanted to take a rest somewhere so I try to contact her and she wasn’t with her phone. I booked a hotel room in her hotel and message her to meet with me. I got the same replied “Please don’t chase like that”. I think she was with another customer and she don’t want me to know it??. It hurts so much this time. We got into fight and I decided to leave the hotel. My friends came and pick me up. They started noticing whats happening with me.

The same day, I got drunk. I went back home and sleep. My friend saw the luggage and decided to open. They saw the women cloths. They immediately contact my sister and knew that was not hers. They also saw the gucci bag she requested in my notifications. They were worried and panic. They called everyone they knew and asked for help. I was still sleeping that time. I woke up and got downstairs and there were a lot of people waiting and worried for me. They told me about complication of getting into secret affairs with such girls and told me that I could even got killed. They decided to monitor my chats and moved to another location for safety. They make me promise to cut the relationship with her and never contact her again. It was the worst night.

There are a lot of things I don’t like her.

🦋 In life, where she wasn’t working like that, where I am not rich. I wish I could meet you again. Love you fullest without anyone can stop. Marry you and have an awesome life. Thank you for everything.

I believe she could be a better person for me and I could be a better person for her. But things goes south. We can’t be together anymore. You will always be in my heart and I am proud and glad of meeting you.

Update: She was asking a gucci bag because her bag was worn out. I thought she didn’t have another bag. One of my friends said they saw 2 new gucci bags when they opened the luggage. I feel so sad that she lied. Even if she tells openly, I will still buy for her. I feel like everything she said is lies.

 🦋 Fly butterfly !!. Fly to the highest. I am sad that I wasn’t able to fly together with you. I wish I could meet you again one day. When we meet again, I want to see you happy and enjoying your life as fullest without needing anyone help.

I promise I will never forget you.

Again, thank you for everything. every moments we enjoyed together.